the break is breaking me....

NOTE TO SELF:
these couple of days have really made me relize how little self control i have
and i must fix this....ASAP!


sooo...
i'm on break from skool for two weeks and it is literally breaking me down
the fact that i am at home with my parents watchin my every move is makin me stuff my face like the cow i am
i decided to fast for monday and tuesday so that i wouldnt feel guilt on having a salad today at my families christmas dinner but....it didnt happen
Monday- i ate about 8 chocolate chip cookies a banana and some grapefruit juice
Tuesday- i ate some doritos half a turky sandwich a banana and a soy vanilla latte

ugh...im a fuckin peice of lard!

after todays dinner i am honestly fasting and working out like crazy until i return to skool....it will make me feel much better and when i get to skool i can also start my normal eating routine

protien bar for breakfast and water for lunch and dinner and everything in between!